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Tag Archives: life
“How can you still be alive?” – Dethklok
I am writing my memoir, in earnest now, as I tentatively started to about twenty years ago. It’s a long, slow, grueling process, lurching forward in sporadic, drunken spurts. I am, as of this typing, 25k words into it. My … Continue reading
Riding the Dragon
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Tagged death, life, major depression, mental-health, Too Much Thinking
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“I’m joining the circus/I’m running away/The people I won’t know/The places I won’t stay”
“Everything has changed… Absolutely nothing’s changed.” I sometimes wonder how others measure their lives. Many become parents and measure through their children, some use a corporate ladder as their meter stick, some stack accolades. I don’t know. I like words. … Continue reading
“It’s funny / because it’s not”
My dreams are so vivid, so passionate. How many times in the past year or so have I woken myself up because I was laughing or crying or screaming in my dreams? It’s a lot. I’ve chronicled many of them … Continue reading
“Pieces of man / I’m learning the hard way what I am”
Every day seems to get a little better. Hard work is paying off, accomplishments are piling up, little victories are being recorded in the footnotes. And I feel nothing. Success is never easy on me; any type of achievement is … Continue reading
“What a presence / haven’t we paid penance?”
Today was one of those days where I was me and the world was itself and we just kept brushing up against each other in ways that I didn’t precisely care for. I’m not to blame; It’s not to blame; … Continue reading
“letters from further away”
Here we are the precipice of a new year. 2018. It seems like something from a sci-fi novel, but these days the world seems more backwards and antiquated than ever. I, in turn, cling to the past tightly, myself. I’m … Continue reading
“No one needs anyone, they don’t even just pretend”
Okay, I hope you’re sitting in a stable position or at least not operating heavy machinery. If there’s a seatbelt or other likewise restraint nearby, I suggest you employ it. I’m about to get political. If you’ve been paying attention … Continue reading
Now the page is soaked with tears / flipping backwards through the years / how I wish that you were here
I made the mistake tonight of looking through old photographs. It started as a moving exercise, a chance to declutter some more stuff as we prepare to move across the nation. Then I got the brilliant idea to shove a … Continue reading
“you say ‘take this’/’this medicine; it’s just what you deserve'”
Wherein I open my heart and let the monster out… Continue reading
Eric McClanahan 